23 January 2016

My 3 lessons of gratitude today:

• I am grateful for being able to experience that slight discomfort of leaving my comfortable home for the unknown future. It is definitely a lesson on impermanence and how to be non-attached. I'm grateful for being able to spend the day with my family. My dad doesn't express it but he always says something like "Do you know anyone in your course?" And he keeps asking questions about my accommodation. I think that's how he shows his care, since he's a pretty action-oriented person. I love him so much, even though he acts steely on the outside I can totally read him. My mum is more expressive though, she goes "what else you want to bring? tell me I go buy." Hahaha aww. I love her too. And then there's my bro and my sisters. They're all so endearing. I taught my bro this bro-code fist I learnt from an African in Australia. I think I've done whatever I can for now. I just hope the seeds continue to flourish :)
• I'm grateful for how life always seems to bring some kind of guidance for me. Just yesterday I was pondering on how so many things in our lives shape the way we move along in life, into the respective careers or people that we meet. It's strange how I met several medicine course-mates in my last semester by suddenly ending up in the same course group and project-work. So I'm grateful for that familiarity, maybe I can share a cab back to my hall after all that.
• I'm grateful for how synchronicity is arising again and again everywhere... It's as if I can feel the patterns around me. I say and see things before they happen... And I keep seeing this message coming to me in all kinds of forms: "Energy cannot be destroyed or created. So the only way is to convert it." I listen to a dharma talk by the qigong master today and he talked about how we must look at our existence as a being in the entire universe, not just the Earth. He referred to this person who lost his father and started crying so badly that his physical chest felt huge pain. The master then taught him how to go into the spiritual realm where he met his father in a beautiful place. I had shivers down my spine because I felt that it was a beautiful message. He said that when we go into higher levels, our wisdom opens up because we see that energy is only converted from one form to another - there is constant shifting, but there is never a real loss of anything. He said that being a Bodhisattva was to not cling onto physical existence nor the spiritual emptiness... but to be able to go back and forth in balance. Everytime he speaks, I feel as if time slows down and those ecstatic shivers go into my heart. I feel as if I was about to sob, I feel as if someone just showered an ocean of stars on me... I'm eternally grateful to how he has contributed towards my path. And he always says this - everyone is born a healer in some way, because we all have that inherent enlightenment. We just need to open our hearts, and keep it open throughout any kind of situation.