Firstly, I apologize to myself for not posting my gratitude journal for the past few weeks because I didn't have access to my laptop. Therefore... I'll compensate with today's (typing in the computer lab).
My many lessons of gratitude today:
- I am grateful for the kindness in others. Today I saw a really amazing scene. We were at this place where everyone camped on mats or stood to wait for the fireworks for nearly an hour. There was this old Australian man who was stumbling without a cane. Then he accidentally fell onto a kid. I saw this flash of anger over the father's face as he braced the impact and pushed the old man away. The old man didn't fall and the kid was safe. But then what amazed me after that was how his face was replaced by one that of concern for the old man. He then walked behind him and held him on his limping side, helping to walk him all the way to the next bus stop. I was so entranced by that scene I totally forgot I was there to watch fireworks. I remember feeling that there IS inherent good in people after all. People are conscious. I found it so satisfying to see a person retract back from his anger and instead, exercise compassion. It's definitely a rare sight, and also a reason why I love the way Australians live their lives - being super laid-back. They aren't as uptight as the Asians. I appreciate it so much.
- Then I saw the fireworks. Boom, boom, boom. Man, it was gorgeous. And it went on and on for about 30 minutes. I just put down the camera and immersed myself in that thoughtless moment. But after a while, I realized that people were getting restless. I thought... well, maybe sometimes too much of a good thing can be bad. It's strange and a little terrifying in its own way, how people can go from "woah" to "no" in just a few seconds. They're always searching for novelty, being stimulated by excitement. But that's what the Buddha taught - that seeking thrill in itself is merely an attachment to pleasure that fades away. No matter where we turn to for that experience, eventually it fades away due to impermanence and you suddenly think that you need a new fix. But the new fix will never satisfy the person, because the problem was internal, not external. Just looking at how such simple fireworks taught me a lesson and I was so deeply grateful for it, so grateful for the Dharma teachings.
- I appreciate the huge diversity in the world. I walked to the city to run some errands and saw a few buskers on the street (you don't get them in Singapore). They were playing some really exotic instruments and I just stood there, entranced by their music. There were so many shades, tastes and spectrum of senses that we engaged with in the world. Like the tutor said, if the world was equalized and the same, then it would be a pretty boring place.
- I am grateful for the lesson that I learnt in the international orientation I had for medicine. It was really interesting because I have also heard about the idea of privilege but never had the context to put it into. They gave us this racial biography of this girl and I realize now the meaning of "fish out of water". It's really true. Personally being a Singaporean chinese, I've never really realized my 'privilege' in being chinese. When I came to Western Australia, I became the odd one out. I was pretty horrified at the thought of being like an Asian dude in a pool of white people. Then I realized the meaning of racism. Some people would fling the finger out and go 'ching chong' when they drove past. Some were more accidental, saying things like "you must be super good at maths" or stuff like that. I saw the attitudes of the Aboriginals towards the whites, some of them had huge dissent for them because they felt that the whites invaded and took away their land. I see so much hatred in some of their eyes sometimes that I curse myself for being so oblivious. But at the same time I appreciate all of that, and I'm grateful for these experiences opening my eyes. I was truly a frog in the well in Singapore. I'm really grateful that I was able to look at Singapore from an external perspective.
There are really quite a few... but I'm a little drained so I'll keep it as little stories in my mind. :)